---So i've come to realize a lot of things about myself lately, one of the biggest being that i don't really know a lot about myself. i know what i like and i know what i don't like and i know where i want to end up, but i don't know how i want to get there or what i really want half the time. i don't understand people, and in being a person i hardly understand myself. I'm in love with the smell of laundry rooms and fresh rain. i love kisses and i love love. i love aimless wandering in gloomy weather and the sound of the rain on the roof of my car. i love driving when i cant see and the thrill of roller-coasters and i love to feel. I'm very easily amused and very sarcastic. i chew on my lip and like to climb trees, i pick my scabs and i get irritated easily and rather often. I'm opinionated and I'm jealous. I'm outgoing but I'm shy. I like to people watch and make up stories or draw the most interesting people i find. i love to make people smile. I couldn't tell you what the most important thing in the universe is, but i hope to someday find it. I like to believe in love, but it seems to lose me along the way. i've been hurt and i've lost hope but i recently found it again and its really growing on me.---
I'm impulsive and impatient and self doubting. Im emotional and somewhat eccentric and i don't think id want to live any differently. i change my mind often and i hate to be alone. I have a lot of buddies and a few rare occurrences i like to call friends. I love attention and i love compliments. I procrastinate and I'm a perfectionist. and if you can still love me all the same, then you are probably one of the most amazing people i've met. Especially you, and you know who you are. or at least i hope you do. because i love you and always will and for some weird reason you just so happen to love me back. ---
i love to live my life day by day. i thrive off of change. i couldn't live without music, and i couldn't live without good food. i love to be moving and learning and experiencing. i love to feel your arms around me and i love the way you smile. i love writing and being poetic and analytical. i love math and i love science. I like to build things and take things apart. I love to really truly understand.---
i like to spill my heart out and post it where you will never read it, or at least you probably wont. and if you do, then i guess you are more interested than i thought. i hope some day in their lives people will learn to love themselves, and i hope that i can someday become one of those people. i hope that i can make you as happy as you make me, and i hope that you can see just how happy you make me feel. i hope i didn't bore you and i hope i made you smile. For if i at least did that, then all this was worth its while.---